Today's Juice
Ugly Juice
4 Carrots
1/4 Head of Cabbage
1 Lime
2 Small Bunches of Spinach
1 Bell Pepper
I'm all out of apples until I get to the grocery store so I concocted this ugly, yet surprisingly tasty juice today.
And my cleanse is going well. Today is Day 9. I have no idea how much weight I've lost, but that doesn't really matter to me. I feel good. Much better than I have in a long time. I feel like my constant bloat is gone. My skin seems to be brighter. I am definitely more calmer and I believe my blood pressure is down. My only issue today is my fiance.
He seems to want to sabotage my juice cleanse with suggestions like "Have a balanced meal. Eat some roast chicken and pasta. Why don't you have a nice big meal for dinner? Eat some candy and have a hot chocolate" and what not. I'm not pleased about this at all. I feel like he is trying to sabotage my best efforts and it hurts my feelings and pisses me off.
I have been unhealthy and overweight for so long and I am finally doing something about it. I am making a huge change in my life and I am excited and happy about this. I was hoping he'd be on board with me, supporting this change. He is, however, not doing that. He is doing the exact opposite with his little comments everyday despite my asking him to stop.
I have heard that in relationships when one partner decides to change something major like quitting drinking, or losing weight, sometimes the other partner feels lost and excluded. Or maybe they try to sabotage the other one because of fear. Whatever the reason, it's sad that they do that. As partners, we should be helping, encouraging and supporting each other, not trying to drag each other down. Maybe I just expect better from the man I love.
My fiance is always afraid I am going to leave him for another man and while I acknowledge his fear, I believe it is totally unfounded. I do not give him any reason to believe I will leave him. I am not getting healthy and losing weight for him or any other man, woman, person, animal etc. I am doing this for me.
So that's where I am at today. Just juicing it up, watching it snow, and thinking about my fiance. I love him dearly, but he's got to stop trying to sabotage me.
